So much has happened since my last post. Where to begin. First and foremost, I have found such a happiness these past few weeks. The relief that has washed over me after finally receiving a job offer cannot be explained. Knowing that there is an end to this period of waiting, that I'm in the last stretch of this valley- has made my heart more grateful and joyful than I can explain. I am finally at the end of this long journey. This last mile is being skipped rather than walked. While it is true, that I am starting as part time until I pass the MBE portion of the bar exam (which I will sit for again 2/29)- the offer is real and it is with an organization that represents everything that I have always wanted to do. I will be working as in house counsel for a domestic violence organization- The Brenda Cowan Coalition in Lexington, Kentucky.
Feeling this dream, this aspiration that I have cradled for so long- finally coming to fruition is such a proud and emotional event. I was proud the day I graduated from college, then even more proud as a I walked across the stage at my law school graduation this past May- but I am most proud that I am finally going to be able to help families and children. I can finally put all of this knowledge, skill and passion to it's purpose. I feel alive in every inch of my bones for the first time in what has been four very long years. I am so grateful to God for bringing me through the shadows that came with this summer. I have cried. I have failed. Yet, here I am- I am standing and embracing this challenge. I know I will pass this time. And all that is between me and my dream are 200 multiple choice questions that I will know.
I never doubted God- but I did doubt myself which can be equally crippling in its own ways. I am back on track- focused and determined that next year, I will be living my dreams. What more can a girl ask for?
